This is the post where I break down a bit. Let me explain.
This morning I woke up and got ready and immediately started my Crime Fiction essay. I worked right up until I left for class. As soon as I got to class however, I learned it was cancelled. I sat in the classroom for a bit with Mallory, Ben, Dyllan, and Mitch. We watched the live stream of the Olympics. The America vs. Slovakia hockey game to be exact (US totally annihilated Slovakia 7-1). After the game we all headed back to Metrogate. All afternoon I worked on my paper and started getting ready for our trip to Wales. I also got to skype with Abi and Portia! I miss them so much and seeing them in the room without me made me a little bit homesick. After a very long evening of forcing myself to write my essay I finally finished. I packed a bit more and was just about to head to bed when I decided to check the train schedule to see what the lines looked like. Of course, it wasn't good. One of the lines we are taking is flooded so Jill and I got together to talk it through. After deciding that we were going to try to catch an early train in the morning we headed off to bed. I couldn't fall asleep because I was so stressed (thanks go out to Cyndi for listening to me freak out on facebook chat). The problem wasn't getting to Wales, it was getting back in time for our flight to Scotland. The Scotland part of our trip is a little more important to us because we are going to be there for almost a week and we have a bus tour planned and everything. A few minutes later, Jill came and knocked on my door. She had called her mom and they talked it over and she suggested we just don't go to Wales. It isn't worth possibly getting stuck there. I knew that if I talked to my parents they would probably say the same thing. Jill and I felt instant relief and I went to call my dad. I knew he would understand but I still wanted to talk to him so he would make me fell better about the whole situation. I tried calling and with this internet, it was a disaster. I texted him and, in trying to find a wifi signal, found myself sitting on the floor. That's when I finally broke down. The stress of everything just hit me and I missed being at home a lot. This is the first time I've started crying since I've been here but it's ok. It's not a bad thing. I am alright. Everything just got a little too much for me to handle and after it was all done and handled, my emotions finally caught up with me. I'm actually pretty proud of myself that I've made it this long without having a little freak out. I have been so independent here and I feel like an actual adult. I am so proud of myself for what I've done and that I've gotten myself here. Today I felt incredibly homesick. I miss my friends and my family but I'm not going to let that keep me from doing things. I can miss everyone and still enjoy myself. I only have 5 weeks left and I'm not going to waste any of it. So, starting tomorrow, Jill and I are going to see if we can get a refund for our train tickets and then we are going to do a ton of free stuff this weekend before we go have an amazing time in Scotland that will be free of stress.
Thanks for sticking with me on this one. I know I got a little weird and sappy at the end there, but it happens. Well, it's 2am and I feel like a mess so I'm off to bed. Goodnight all!
JessLynn
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